Pause for just a moment to take a breath. Make it as deep and slow as you can without feeling pressure to go beyond what you are capable of. Notice what it feels like to breathe, the sensation of breath coming in. Notice your body expanding as you inhale. Now exhale everything out and notice what that feels like for you physically.
Take another deep slow breath, noticing what that’s like. As you exhale allow your shoulders to relax. Notice other areas of your body that are tense and imagine letting the tension go with your exhale.
Take one more breath in and out repeating the steps above. Take this moment with you as you go about your day. Repeat as necessary 🙂
Our feelings about situations or relationships can be misleading yet we often base our understanding of reality on a feeling we have. Shift your thinking to the data. Does it prove your feeling is right or does the data offer up a shadow of doubt? If you feel your friend doesn’t like you ask yourself why. What tells you your friend doesn’t like you? Is it because she hasn’t called in awhile? Do you know why she hasn’t called? Probably not. You are likely starting to build a case for your feeling but it’s based on assumptions and skewed data in an unwise attempt to prove your theory. Be very careful how you read into information. Step back and take on a neutral stance. Then sort through the data. Also, it helps to contact those involved, in this case the friend, and ask. We have a tendency to create stories without checking our facts.
For some it seems elusive. I find it at times and at others lose it. It seems peace is connected to a choice we make about how we look at our circumstances. When Anna was waiting for her first transplant I struggled to find peace. I didn’t like not living at home and being away from all things familiar including people. I didn’t like the unpredictable nature of the transplant world, every day wondering if it would be the day we got the call for available lungs. I didn’t have a lot of peace.
By Anna’s second transplant I learned a few things. The main difference was being at peace with whatever was happening. I learned to find contentment in the space of the unpredictable and unfamiliar. Paul, one of the writers of the New Testament of the Bible, spoke of learning to be content in the midst of hardships. His were a lot more intense than mine but the concept of finding peace in any and every situation is accessible to all of us.
It is a choice to breathe and relax. To look for glimmers of sunshine in the midst of dark circumstances or simply be at peace right where you are. Life is filled with discomfort. Acknowledge yours, give space to grieve, be angry or sad. Then take a few slow breaths and remind yourself you can get through this a breath at a time. You can choose to hang on to icky emotions or let them go (for now, they will likely come back but you’ll deal with them when they show up again). You can choose to do something that fills your soul in the midst of the challenge (as simple as looking at a flower, the sky, a color you like, remembering a pleasant time or place). You can even follow the gentle prompt of my online yoga friend, Yoga with Adriene, turn the corners of your mouth up.
I understand it can be hard to find peace, but I also know it’s possible. Choose peace 🙂
I can’t remember when I last posted about Anna so I figured it’s time to write about her. She and her sweet dog are here in Colorado living with me and my husband. She is doing better now than she has in a long time. Her recovery from this second lung transplant was harder than her last but the upside is she didn’t get cancer this time (let’s hope it stays that way!). So far, she is rejection and infection free. She is gaining weight and has not used her gj-tube (a port on her abdomen to put formula into her stomach) in a few months. That alone is a good sign.
She just started taking Trikafta, the new breakthrough medication for cystic fibrosis. The hope is it will correct what cf screws up which should mean fewer sinus, digestive, and pancreatic issues for Anna. It won’t do too much for her lungs since they have the dna of the donor and don’t have cf but it should help her body to be overall healthier which should translate into a longer life. We hope so!
Although Anna is still living at home (rarely the goal of an almost 29 year old!), she is getting closer to one day being on her own again. Being physically able to work enough to support herself is a challenge right now. She continues to teach English online and has added a new venture. She is now a Pampered Chef consultant! Needless to say, I am beginning to acquire a bunch of kitchen products. 😉 Anna is, too! It warms my heart to see her enthusiasm for the products and for her customers. Since everything is being done online anyone can participate. If you’re interested in hosting a party or buying products to make cooking more enjoyable, contact Anna through her Pampered Chef Site.
For me, it feels relaxing to be on this side of her second transplant journey. We are home, there’s more predictability (not that any of us really know what’s going to happen but I think you know what I mean), and I’m not living in the is-she-going-to-make-it space. COVID hasn’t posed as big of an issue as you might think. It does make it more difficult for Anna to work but she is figuring out things she can do that minimize her contact with people. We are well-versed in virus-fighting protocols and doing our best to keep viruses and bacteria out of our home. So far, we’re all doing well. I hope you are, too!
Having trouble sleeping? Are thoughts running around your mind and keeping you awake? One technique I find helpful is reciting verses in my mind. Perhaps you don’t read the Bible but you know some positive statements. You could recite those. You’ll need to put reins on your mind to keep it focused on reciting which helps you stop thinking about the things that are keeping you from sleeping. Before long you will just drift off to sleep. If you wake up during the night, just do the same thing again.
The more air time you give to thoughts that keep you from sleeping, the worse it gets. We train ourselves to ruminate by doing it again and again. Notice it, stop and switch to reciting. Try it tonight and see what happens.